God, help mama get through this..

Damn tiring le today’s time table!!
PA for 3 hours, Chemistry for 3 hours, and Maths for 1 hour..
But at least i learned something in school today.. ^^
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My darling brother is back from university today..
But didn’t get to see him yet,
Coz he’s sleeping the whole morning, afternoon, and now….evening? =.=ll
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In the car, on the way home..
Marcus told me “Jo, must study lorr.. don’t play ady lorr..”
And I said “since when I got play ohh???”
He answered “u dare say u no go out play? Hah?? Who that day go watch movie somemore??”
=.= swt~ kan dah kena marah.. looks like I have to start study ady lurr..
Even aya scold liao.. s0bx!!! T________T
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The moment I came back home,
Mom told me bout her problem..
She went to the hospital today, to see her doctor, Dr. Suraya..
There’s a tumor in her womb.. and she have to undergo operation next month..
Last 2 years, she operated once, and now….again??? gosh~
Her face does looked pale these few days..
And she get exhausted easily..
She got this thalassemia too.. low red blood cells in her body..
That’s why her face is always pale..
Im so worried bout her.. feel like crying in front of her just now when she told me this..
But I didn’t.. pretended to be a strong girl….
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We went for lunch at KFC Kuantan Parade..
Coz she suddenly mentioning of eating KFC.. @@
She sat at the backseat.. and I cant hold on my tears from dropping anymore..
I wore my sunglasses (even itz raining) and I sobbed in silence..
Lucky thing she didn’t notice it from behind..
I kept wiping the tears off my cheek, but still it kept dropping..
And I sang songs in the car like normal, coz I don’t want her to know it..
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The most touching thing was..
she was supposingly been admitted today, to undergo blood tranfusion..
but she told the doctor to postpone it... to do it during the holidays in June..
and the reason?..
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"My kids are still going to school. I need to prepare breakfast, lunch and dinner for them. I need to iron their cloths. Need to do the laundry. Need to fetch them to extra classes. They need me."
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Even when she's sick, she still thinks about us..!
i really wanted to cry when she called the doctor to delay the operation..
and i have been so stupid that i didnt realise all this little things she did for us..
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Itz a sad thing.. really..
Knowing that the chance of a successful surgery is only 50/50..
And she kept telling me bout how I should look after myself if she cant make it through the surgery..
I wanted to shut her up, but then I know itz best for her to just tell what she wants..
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Mother’s Day is coming soon.. this Sunday..
I hope I can do something for her..
Coz im afraid that…… nvm~
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I love her..
And seriously, I cant live on without her..
God, I pray that, U’ll look after her, protect her, and make sure she’s okay..
I pray that U can help mom to get through this stage..
Amen.
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Datz all..
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Sayonara..
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“”we have hopes coz we have love””
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~(JoLeNe)~
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be strong mama..

dont leave us..