finally realised..

hey guys..
i've been away kinda long..
lazy to update i guess.. @@"
coz there's Gundam.. there's Bleach.. there's Final Fantasy.. aikz
well, itz sunday today, so i tot of updating a lil' bit..
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there's so many updates on my facebook! *shocked*
and there's so many e-mails! *shocked again*
so, it took me sometime to clear all those before i can update my blog..
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well, ytd there was this chinese singing competition at Tanah Putih..
which i felt a lil' bit of regretness when im there..
no offence, itz not that im not interested in watching grace perform, but.....sigh
hmmm, hope u guys will win anyway..
u guys had practiced a lot, i hope itz worth it..
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i dont know, i just feel weird being there.. i mean at Tanah Putih..
itz like i shouldnt even BE there..
get me anot?... nvrmind if u dont get it..
besides, itz doesnt even matter to u..
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i made a mistake..
but this mistake made me realised something really important..
and i kept thinking of the phrase that i noticed at the Biology Lab..
"if u're not part of the solution, then u're part of the precipitate"
i kept wondering what does diz means?? and izzit true??
becoz what i felt was... im not part of the solution.. and not part of the precipitate either..
it drives me crazy, really.
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i hadnt been talking nicely, or normally since ytd nite..
there's something in my mind, that spins my head, and made me feel uneasy.
but then i finally realised,
realised something really important,
something really matters to me, and to my future..
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im turning back.. to see what i've done, and what i've become..
by that, i can alter....my future.
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datz all..
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sayonara..
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""we have hopes coz we have love""
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~(JoLeNe)~
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im no lesbo,

stay away frm me..