after one week of school..

somebody complained that i didnt update my blog..
im jz too buzy to update, and mom kept the broadband away frm me..
itz a good thing oso, coz im not dat disciplined enuf.. i guess..

im trying my best to keep up in many things..
homeworks especially..
i wanted to change, just for diz year at least..
i got influenced by him, i guess..
and i studied....bcoz of him? ?
i had no idea.. @@
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im so stressed up bcoz of school now..
ni baru 1st week, x sampai 1 bulan lagi.. =.=ll
so many works to do..
so many things to be catched up..
and most of all, so many rules for us to obey.. ><
so many unhappy things happened as well.. wth is wrong wif me??
am i a magnet for troubles and depressions?? @@
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my best fren is treating me diz way..
what the hell is she thinking??
i can never believe itz her..
but he sounded so convincing!
i never ask her yet...
but i pray things didnt actually go that way..
plz... plz be u..
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im tired of the complaints..
i felt pity for her oso..
she's just a middle person..
who needs to entertain both parties at the same time..
we truly understand ur feelings....,
and we will do anything to help u as much as we can..
whateva i promised to u, i will keep my words..
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FELLA, stop diz childish thing oredy!!
u're behaving like a 3-year-old kid..
behaving like "i'll tell mommy if u do dat again!" some sort of thing..
come on, can u treat us more like a 19-year old teens?
LEAVE US ALONE plz? ? ? =.=ll
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and to her..
im so sorry..
im so sorry that i hurt ur feelings so deeply..
mayb he didnt understand, but as a gal, i truly understand ur feelings..
itz not nice at all to have me getting in your way..
u will never take diz thing dat cool..
so, scold me or curse me whateva u like..
i tink i deserved it alot..
im so sorry again.. i never meant it, at all..
itz just........just me being totally selfish and silly.. ><
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my fren..
did u really mean it when u said that?
or itz jz a joke?
anyway, the "joke" appears to hurt me badly..
didnt u ever think of my feelings after u'd said it?
i was so sad and felt hurt,
coz i certainly will never think of u saying dat to me!!
u've ruined my mood for that very day..
but itz okie, i'll just stay positive..
and not to take things that seriously..
i'll be okay later.. ^^
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left only 2 more weeks for ur big day..
gambateh yah..
it'll be over soon and u can have ur long rest after that..
take care of ur health plz..
and dun slp so late at nite.. ><
sometimes 4+ only u slp? my goodness~
dont worry, nothing is wrong wif me..
will see u very very soon..

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datz all for now..
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sayonara
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""we have hopes coz we have love""
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~(JoLeNe)~
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miss u like i alwiz do.. ^^
gambate together..