hey guys.. im just too bored i guess..
that's why im writing diz..
i mean, i cant tell anyone bout it, so.... lol?
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yah bout the recent life of mine..
as u guys know, i just finished and ended my secondary life..
itz hard.. itz freaking hard..
apart from staying at the same school for almost 7 years (itz really a challenge you know),
there are many other things that i went through..
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from Form 1 till Form 5, everyone knows that im the only chinese girl in my school, for my batch of course..
they boys, well...they were a few chinese boys.. but itz not that i really got close to them..
only when i was in Form 4 i started to get to know each and everyone of them..
and so, i befriended many malay friends.. girls or boys..
to me, races mean nothing to me..
they are the same, humans.. but the only different is the language they use..
one speaks malay, and the other speaks chinese, or english..
mama hated me socialising with malay friends, especially guys..
coz to her, i'll get attracted to guys easily..
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well, i cant blame her for having a thought like that,
coz i've started dating since i was Form 1, and he's the longest boyfriend i ever had..
i guess everyone knew who.. lolx~
he's chinese, and mama knew him.. and i tink that's y she let me..
for 3 years, at last the r/ship ended..
and from that onwards, i hardly get a boyfriend..
cant forget 1st love eh? hahax! jk jk~
i guess my heart had just sealed away frm love life..
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oh my gosh~ back to the topic plz.. haha
about in Lower 6 and Upper 6...
i got more and more chinese friends..
Form 6, duh? xDD
these bunch of friends, mainly from MGSS or Tanah Putih or Afzan or anywhr else xcept SMART..
they were nice.. most of them i knew from my primary school..
im not close to them since long long time ago,
so i cnt expect them to treat me the same like hw they treat among themselves..
but sometimes, i had fun to the max with them together..
sometimes.. not all the time.. got me?
i was completely silent during Lower 6, coz...my previous friends didnt enter Form 6..
only me.. me alone..
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no offence guys, but sometimes, i really think that i've been used..
used just becoz i was from that school..
just becoz i know the teachers there..
just becoz i know the facilities in the school..
just becoz i have my juniors there..
just becoz i have experience from that school..
just becoz u guys needed me..
but when im finished, u'll dump me somewhere.. as im not needed anymore..
even so, i felt happy and welcomed with you guys around me..
i'll treat them like my friends..
i'll treat them like how they once treated me nicely..
but, izzit worth it?
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i feel like i have nobody in this world..
i want my old days back..
i want my friends back..
i want to be in the memory of my past..
although i know, i cant be..
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As for me,
Friendship is one of the best things in this life , sometimes your friends are much closer to you than your own mother or father,
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Friendship is based on human interaction in spite of any gender, colour, religion, ethnicity or any other differences.
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Friendship doesn't mean to talk everyday or to meet everyday and hangout together, for me it meens, trust, responsibilty, being there when someone is needing you, so if there is someone that you like boy or girl, within the boundaries that your culture allows you, you can be friends...
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