are those feelings suppose to be in my head now?
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i should be..
coz im not there with him..
i wanted to be.. but of coz itz impossible..!
which gal in diz world will not want to celebrate valentine wif her loved ones..?
to see them happy, make me feel so.......i dunno wat to say.. @@
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but i know.. that i shouldnt be..
coz they're my dear frens..
im suppose to be happy, coz at last they had found their loved ones..
someone who loves and cares for them so much..
just like him..
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it was so so so touching to see you guys have such great fun..
of coz, i wanted a valentine like dat too..
to spent time and be only wif him if possible..
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i cried as i read through.. the reason? im not so sure myself..
maybe im too touched and happy bout they're love story?
or maybe im too sad coz i cant be in one?
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my love life sux to the max..!
firstly, it ended after approximately 2 years.
secondly, it ended after 6 or 7 months due to SPM exam..
till now..
to be single, itz such a free life.. itz nice to have such freedom to socialise..
i really thought a single life is like dat..
alwiz better than others.. coz u have FREEDOM!
and with my wonderful frens like babi grace, marcus, visnu, my ji mui and others,
im more than happy ady.. ^^
mwahx! love you guys to the max! ! !
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the main reason i dont have any partner now, itz becoz of him..
a long and pure relationship between us,
making him conquering the whole of my heart and not letting others to enter in my life..
he may be thinking that he's selfish when he read diz,
but thats the truth and fact..
i bet he'll try to change, by ignoring me or watsoever,
to let me live a normal love life like anybody else..
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but i wanted him to know dat diz forbidden love of us,
will never change a bit even u forced me to have a boyfren..
same goes like what happened 5 years ago..
when i was with Clement, i still cant let go of you in my mind..
u may think that im such a jerk, a cheater, a player in my relationship between me and Clement..
but i tink that's what i'll do in the future too..
and i know it'll hurt his feelings when i have a boyfren..
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i jz cant forget all bout him if i ever got myself a boyfren..
dat is why, i choose not to have boyfren till now..
i dont wanna hurt his feelings..
i dont wanna cheat on him..
itz not that i wanted to reject u, but then i have my own reasons..
itz unfair if you shower 100% of your love to me,
but i will only devote 50% of my love for you..
unfair rite?..
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once again, i wanna say congratz to my dear frens..
u've found your love ones.. and dat im happy for you guys..
i really do.. u guys are such sweet couples!
may you guys stay loving each other forever till the end.. ^^
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and for you..
dont try to change any bit of you..
dont ever try to purposely hurt my feelings just becoz u want me to lead a normal love life..
becoz, i will never buy wateva you say.. ^^
as long as i love you,
more than the stars in the sky..
more than the water in the sea..
and more than anything in this whole wide world..
u can never change my feelings towards you...
i kept saying to myself and to my frens..
that we're totally IMPOSSIBLE..
but then someone so so wise told me that..
IMPOSSIBLE spells I.M.POSSIBLE..
really give you za dou lerr.. xD
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aikz~ terjadi emo post kerr??
so sry.. gomennasai~!
i just wanted to write out my feelings here.. ngekz~
at least, i had a dream bout him yesterday..
i tink itz becoz of valentine, diz dream was a bit special.. and much sweeter~
hahax..
i celebrated my valentine.. in my sweet sweet dream..
i was so true that i dont even wanna wake up and snap out of it..
i love my valentine.. ^^
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datz all..
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sayonara..
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""we have hopes coz we have love""
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~(JoLeNe)~
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plz dont do anything silly aft u read diz..
coz i know u will..
just.....love me! ^^
P.S. I Love You
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