vampire

i wonder..
How Isabella Swan in the Twilight story made up her mind when fell in love with vampire Edward Cullen? She have to make a choice that will change her life forever! ! Including not to see her family members anymore, change her diet (feeding on blood), have to obey the Vampire Council rules, and face threats from other vampires.. And oso not forgetting, choosing the love of her life between Edward Cullen or Jacob Black, her childhood best friend.. These questions kept spinning in my head from the day i'd read the last book of the Twilight Saga, Breaking Dawn.. She is so so so brave, just to be with her loved ones. She dont have to even think twice bout it! I wonder if i can do that too..

This thing relate to me like, seriously a lot?? For now that i have to make a choice. Not to say i've fallen in love with a vampire and having problems just like Bella! no no no~~ Just a bit similar in some other case. Babi grace might have known bout it, but then if she's LUMPY (lambat pick-up), then just count that as im lucky. hahax! no offence babi, i know u know bout it too.. If i choose to follow, the changes will affect my entire life. I repeat, ENTIRE LIFE! ! But then, i still have no idea whether itz worth it anot.

It feels really uneasy when i tink bout it, which means that i feel uneasy ALL THE TIME, coz i'll be thinking bout it most of the time! No solution, just left hanging...

I believe no one can help me in this.
Itz time for Jolene to think deeply bout it, and finding a solution for it..

im sorry that i crap here in my blog, and itz only 8am+!
and i tink most of u dont even understand what the heck im writing,
but the most important thing is i want a certain people to understand it..

datz all

sayonara

""we have hopes coz we have love""

~(JoLeNe)~

if only i dont have the choice to choose..

i hate my life,

but currently enjoying it..

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