hey peepz..
itz thursday today. and today i feel like my sem break is gonna end real soon. scared? nervous? feeling unsatisfied? i don know. itz all in my head now.
woke up around 6am. went TC to watch sunrise with elaine. sadly, the weather is not really good, itz cloudy. so, we didnt really see the sun. ='( anyway, we had fun laughing at elaine's stupid and silly jokes. seriously, im gonna have hard time laughing if i have any heart problems, coz once u laugh at her jokes, u cant really stop laughing at it.
aliff came. and we went Hoi Yin to eat curry mee. gosh i cant express how i miss the curry mee there. elaine ate a BIGGER bowl of mee. =p it was aliff's first time there, and i guess that restaurant made a good impression for him as he finished his mee, even the curry! LOL
and, there's this situation, the most EMBARRASSING moment for me i guess. where when we stepped in Hoi Yin, a man looked at me, and smile at me. i was like "wtf? who's this man??" and he said "teacher teacher~" then suddenly i recalled that this man was my teacher! but i cant remember when he taught me, or where he taught me, coz obviously, he's not from SMART or anywhere near there. then he said "remember Belwin?" then i was thinking, ''owhh, maybe u're a teacher who taught me from Belwin." but i cant really remember, so i acted i remember. (damn im evil!!) he asked where am i now, what am i studying. then bla bla bla... he said psychology really suited my character. when i was ready to sit on my place, he said "u're still so talkative." i said "thanks!" i actually took that as a compliment! and before he left, he said this "muka u, semua tak berubah. i think u havent change for like... 6 or 7 years?" i was like.. 6 or 7 years?? that's so long ago! so, what im really embarrassed here is that a teacher like him, remembers his student like me eventhough after so long, instead of me remembering him! OMG!! ='(
it was drizzling. other than that, i love the weather. i like damp and cool weather there at the beach. with the sound of the waves, it is one thing that i cant get at any other place other than here. and i know, im gonna miss the beach most when i go back to kampar. after walking for like..2hours, we went to have a drink at McD. elaine had her apple pie for lunch. for me, only milo.
after fetching elaine to school, i went to buy for myself keling fan (indian rice) from Kuantan Curry House near my house. that aunty still remembers me! she said "wahh, sudah pergi belajar jauh, masih ingat ayam makcik ahh." itz actually true! her spicy chicken is the best i've ever tried, and i only will order spicy chicken there. so, i totally enjoyed my lunch. =)
do you know what i feels? when u planned an occasion for almost a week, where you really worked hard on planning including calling this person and that person, doing research on the mode of transportation, places to go, and suddenly out of a sudden everything turned upside down? meaning, cancellation of trip? and it is all because of ONE stupid reason? a reason that i think is stupid and that reason actually made me feel so fcuking useless as a grown up. i have no idea how to express my feelings right now.
to you : you may think the reason is concrete enough to cancel the trip, but you never realised how i feel bout it and what i think about it or my opinion about it. you're just being you. never ever listen to anyone or to anything. and yet, the one who suffers will be me and you.
and yes, my trip to Singapore is cancelled. be happy for me everyone. :)
datz all im updating. im seriously pissed. disappointed. frustrated.
janne.
im so so sorry..
i dont know what else to say to you,
but apologizing sincerely and sadly..
P.S. I Love You
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