Day 13 of Sem Break in Kuantan

hey peepz..

this morning isnt really a good start for me and my sisters. well, not really interested in talking bout it. just a bad starter. fcuk.

afternoon, we had chicken rice at the food court. i ate A LOT. after finishing my own plate of rice, i took elaine's rice a little. then i drank 2 bowls of soup. and im still feeling hungry! went back home, i slept. since i got nothing else better to do.

i was forced to wake up at 4pm, to fetch celine from tuition. i was driving with my half-opened eyes. when i reached home, i went back upstairs to my cozy bed, and return to my slumberland.

at night, had dinner at home, and did not go anywhere.

this is my last weekend that im gonna spend at home. why cant i feel a bit of unwillingness? the moment i reached kuantan, i wanted to shop with my mom loads of my needs at Kampar. ended up we did not buy anything together. as this is my last weekend here, i predict that the buying-together scene will not happen as well. she cant even spent a day free for me, to buy my needs, to spent sometime with me together. when we went to the mall, she'll go for groceries or bookshops, for the sake of my sisters. not me. when we're at the mall, me and elaine will wonder off alone, as she will be in the places mentioned, where i dont have any interest in. whenever we're at the mall, she'll think of rushing to go back home, or to go somewhere else. there's no time for me at all. and when i seek attention from someone else, from my frens for example, she'll pull her sour face and constantly text or call me to go back home.

i cant understand why. if she's not happy im at home, why cant she be at least happier when i have friends to spent time with? selfishness.

when i wanted to express a little bit of my uneasy and moody feelings to someone, i was turned down too. thanks alot. to think of you talking to me in that way, i cant even imagine it. hurt.

what i did for the night? The Betrayal Knows My Name anime. and edit one of my photo.

Uragiri wa Boku no Namae o Shitteiru

OMG! the eyes were just too fake!

haha!

datz all. counting my last days at Kuantan.

janne.

you had no idea how guilty i felt..

P.S. I Love You