the annoyance..

hey peepz!

since yesterday we just finished our first paper, next will be on Saturday, on the 18th Dec. Theories of Counselling and Psychotherapy. for me, this subject will be much tougher than the previous one. so, have to study harder? =(

went to study at yuchi's house for awhile. then decided to go out and study at McD. me, yuchi, da er, adam and jack walked out at 12.30am. but before going to McD, we went ABC mamak first. had supper there. and watched soccer! Tottenham vs Chelsea. and the result was 1-1. Rui joined us then. after finish watching soccer, only we walked to McD.

i started my first chapter of this subject. *yeay!* it wasnt that hard, just basic stuff. so...no biggy! but it was quite a long read, and until just now which was 5.30am, my head felt so heavy. and the head-falling feeling came back. i got this few times recently. it really bothers me, coz it's as if i cant control my head from falling down. that's why i went back earlier. thanks Adam for accompanying me back. =)

i know that in my situation, i think most of the people, we cant please anyone as they wanted to. now that i feel so regret:-

of having slightly better command in language.

of reading slightly more reading materials.

of knowing slightly more facts.

of having slightly better understanding in some things.

why? because i just think that other people will not really appreciate it. i really don't wanna offend anyone by saying this, but i just feel disappointed and sad of what had happened. i thought i can just bear the feeling of discouraged and humiliated for few times, but when i expressed my feelings unknowingly, not one person can understand how i felt, or what i was trying to expressed. but instead, misunderstanding occurred. and then, silence.

i just need my point of view to be heard. is that wrong? is that not possible? i'm deeply confused. but all i know is that, toleration is highly needed!

again, i'm not trying to offend anyone. i just simply expressing my inner feelings that i feel it's harder if i said it out loud. i'm terribly sorry if i offended anyone. really, i have no intention doing so.

what i am supposed to do?

Faz honey said :

it's ok, to think that we can't please anyone is normal. and it's not easy to please someone especially when they expect too much from us.

just do things that you think is right for you and bring no harm to them,

and trying to please anyone is still a good effort.

that's enough for today i guess. going to bed now.

janne.

i just need someone who can understand..

P.S. I Love You