Self-aware.

"We know what we are, but know not what we may become."

-William Shakespeare-

hey peepz..

today's routine was kinda like yesterday. woke up in the afternoon, lunch, and visited the clinic. yes. again. how i hated when i have to cycle all the way there. just to get injected on the butt. and paid RM30 for it. =.=

i know this looks cute,

but the effect, really annoys me.

went mcD after that. this time the effect came faster than it was yesterday. so i went home early, and slept awhile. the dizy-ness of my head is really unbearable. anyway, i slept only for awhile.

went to mcD, again. for dinner. and studied there till 2am. i have not fully covered all the chapters yet, and im quite worried bout it. tomorrow is my last day of studying, and i can feel that i cant cover everything on time. plus i have to visit the clinic again tomorrow for the 3rd jap, and honestly, i dont feel like going there anymore. it'll make me sleep, and means, wasting my studying hours. but what to do..? =(

there's a lot of things in my mind right now. i dont know what else i can do. i dont know what else i should do. it's true of what u've said. i dont understand you. and those are the words that hurt me most. how can i understand u, when u never tell me anything about it? i knew something was wrong this evening and i asked about it. but yet, u refused to say a word bout it. and we ignored this topic completely. i dare not ask anymore, coz i know u wont be happy about it. and i know, by forcing u to tell me bout it, will not make anyone happy in the end.

im sorry if i dont understand you. im sorry if you feel like you'll be doing this alone. im sorry if you're upset. but dont blame me for behaving like this. it is because i care bout you. if it's wrong, then im sorry that i accidentally cared a lot bout you all this while.

im aware of who i am. im aware of whom i will be to you. more precisely, im trying to avoid being what i wanna be. coz i know it will make things so much better to you.

currently, not in the mood.

janne.

forgive me that i cared so much bout you...

i'll try not to do that,

if that is what you wish for..

P.S. I Love You