the frustrations..

hey peepz..

2 more days to my first final paper. Counselling Skills paper. these few days, i thought i will be able to study this subject concentrate-ly. but just yesterday, things changed. its not that im not interested in this subject, but what that particular person had said to me yesterday really hurt my feelings deeply. i tried to forget all about it, but it does gave a huge impact on me. my impression towards this particular person dropped tremendously. and automatically, when im trying to study HER subject, i'll keep thinking bout what she said to me. =x

and these days as well, 2 nights continuosly i came back home feeling so unsafe. first night was when a huge cat was trying to scare me by following me and looking me straight into my eyes. second night was worst. firstly, i passed by the basketball court on my way home from mamak, and there was wild dogs there. and i was all alone walking there. after made it to the junction at my house, i thought i can be relieved. but the second thing that happened was a motor with 2 Indian guys coming towards me and stopped in front of me. and let me tell you guys again, im all alone. they said "hi" and giggled idiotically. for awhile i thought they were up to something, but thank God they didnt do anything and left. for these 2 nights, i came home terrified and scared.

i know i promised to tell you everything. but what if that matter is about you, that i have to think about it myself, that i have to try to solve it myself. i know i shouldnt be thinking anything bout it, but i just cant stop it..ok? im sorry if i hurt your feelings when i behaved this way. but i need to be like that, to avoid anything that will hurt us both later.

since you left, i honestly cant stop thinking bout you. whenever i think back bout the moments we had together, i'll smile and my heart cries for your presence. i know this sounded stupid and silly. i know i said to both of us that it's better for us to move on. but you were right bout me still love and care for you. or was it missing you? yes, i miss you. very much.

i just feel its better if it's that way.

and thanks for being there

when i needed somebody..

P.S. I Love You